So it is already 2018! And that means a whole new year to explore ourselves. Last year has been a big year for me personally. I have taken a half year of college, and in that half year I have had a lot of time to think.
So first of I would like to say that I may say from my therapist that I have overcome my depression! At the beginning of my treatment I did a test to look at the intensity of my symptoms and they were all in the red aria (which isn’t good, hence red), and I also did that at the end of my treatment and now they are all in the green aria. That made me so happy to see, just the conformation that I was doing great again was wonderful. I do think that I will be more vulnerable to a depression in the future, but I do hope that this was only once and that I have learned tricks to get myself on the right track again once that will happen.
But because of my depression, I had decided to take half a year pause from my college, to focus on me, which I had never done before. I have always been someone to continue on with my study and just go, go, go. So I think I never had to change to get to really know myself, with myself on the second place.
The past 6 months myself stood on the first place and in that time I feel like I have come to know myself better than I ever had. But I also had a lot of time to question a bunch of things. And one of those things is my sexuality and I am still questioning it. And it sort of scares me because I have never questioned it before. My mom thinks it might be a sort of phase (she is open to me figuring my sexuality, she would always support me, just to get that clear 🙂 ) because of my depression, because I was questioning so many things.
So I am really confused. And I have been walking around with these feelings for a few months. And even now I as I am typing this I am not really sure if I will post this (if you read this, I did post it), I don’t even know why I shouldn’t because all I have been getting from this community is positive response.
This might be a personal question and you don’t have to answer it if you don’t want to. How did you figure out your sexuality?
I just recently started to look things up on the internet and I think I might be bisexual, but I don’t know for sure. So overall my question is just. How do you know for sure what your sexuality is?
So if you would like to answer my question, I would be very grateful and maybe this came also help other people in some way.